This is really the first/second step in one of my larger goals: To marry the man of my dreams.

I guess technically the first step would be to find men. Real men. But then again, I guess it all depends on what your definition of a real man is. Regardless, I’ve been in love only once before and partially do still care for him. We were together for only 5 months and he ended it in January (over a month ago). I was completely heart broken and went through a really tough time, but I’m moving on, emotionally.

I think I’ve learned a lot of essential lessons that will help me make better decisions when it comes to finding a man worthy of my time and my love. I just find now that it’s actually really difficult to find someone decent. Most of the guys I used to date were all just “what was available”, and now that I’m a little more choosy, I can’t seem to really find anyone.

Do you think this could be me pushing them away? Being too picky?