Fall in love

My girlfriend and I got engaged a week ago, and I am so ecstatic! She is the most tender lovely, and loving woman I’ve ever met, and I’m so lucky to have her as my fiancee! God I am so happy.

Holly, I can’t wait to marry you.

And you know there is something warm and comfortable there to catch you, when you’re falling for the right one…

Hey! Isn’t it wonderful to be loved? Is itt supposed to be complicated? I know that a really simple sort of idea appeals to me, but I understand that societally there are many things to be considered.

Oh no!

I’m back in that mode where I start reading articles on couples and relationships and parenting!

This is terrible! (Actually, it secretly makes me happy)

It always starts with something innocuous, like

“How to show her that you really love her” and then slides harmlessly enough to one like “how to love eachother even in an argument” and maybe something about faith like “couples who worship together stay together!” but it always ends with either “how to raise wonderful kind children who love eachother” or “how to spice things up even when you both work full time.”

Anyway, I’ve discovered that I totally have all of the good couple communication skills down, and I love doing all of the (sofar permissible : D ) good husband/male significant other things that I read about, and I’m excited like crazy to get to spend time with her.

It’s scary standing at this end of the journey and looking down a road that could be seventy years long (knock on wood!) and full of wonderful and heartbreaking moments and feelings, but I jsut have to be confident that, as I plan my path, the Lord is directing my steps : )

I posted this as a reply, but it’s about the most succint way to phrase my beliefs about this, so I’ll put it here too.

If you want to fall in love and be close with someone, then go get it, make it happen! Don’t just sit there silently and hope something happens. Show some love to someone who wants it, and love will come back to you.

I just realized how many beautiful and caring girls there are in the world, and it is a totally staggering and amazing and excellent number. I am going to get over myself and my stupid hang-ups and care for someone

This happens on its own, right? The more I worry about it, the less happy I will be with everything else, and the less I’ll get done! I’m going to try very hard today to not worry about this. Good luck, me.

It is so hard to wait for this to happen : /

I really wish that I could know for sure who, when, and how it will happen, and in the mean time it is driving me kind of crazy.