Analyse & change my habits to achive excellence

no its not me who go on safest way.. to do everything in my own way n experimenting is my need.. i feel more contented..

prob: i m open to all opinions from people…
i need support or assurance from someone… but now i m failing to guard my thoughts from negative opinions… from las 3-4 years i fear to be different from others… i want to be as everybody… n its not possible at all…

now: i doubt my abilities.. i worry about how thinks will happen… no this is not going to help me…

i need to save my self no one going to save me..

i m very persistent…
whenever i face setbacks… i get upset.. but then i start over again… try to do things in different different ways..

now: i m getting upset over small things… n sometimes no one optimist like me… can not find balance..
it taking time to get over it.. & try again… n this period has increased last year…

in some cases i must learn to give in…

whenever i get angry… i try to defuse it.. leave that place n go some other place.. lots of times i cry after few secs.. i must divert this energy for good…

i control my anger easily… but i must learn to dismiss all of my thoughts immediately… abt that situation… otherwise its just making me weak.. i must talk with myself… when i get angry… & must bring around the positive result..