Realize that some people are never going to be the people you thought they might be and be ok with that

So when i was young my dad left the house sure he paid child support but he constantly let us down when it came to being at games or just spending time with us. But no matter what i still thought he was the greatest dad ever… As i got older i grew to understand that i never really knew him just as he’s never really known me… That makes me sad but theres a strange comfort in that fact.. if i dont really know him then how bad can he hurt me? That’s the way i feel… through the eyes of children we saw him as this hero… through the eyes of an adult i dont even see him.. We havent spoken in 5 months he has a new family now and hasn’t said hello Dad, i want to say, thank you for who i thought you were… and now it’s ok for who you really were i loved that man. but can i ever love you?