do all the things i should have done in my 20s rather than regret not having done them yet or at all ever

i know it’s probably premature to be thinking about death (i’m only in my early thirties) but all i can think about is how i haven’t done anything i set out to do in the last 16 years and how unhappy i am with my current circumstances and that for all i know, i could be dead in 10 years, and where does that leave me? gah! i know i should focus on what i can do rather than what is already done, but the not knowing what i want still leaves me paralyzed with fear. i’m a mess.

1. studying abroad/living in a foreign country
2. traveling across europe
3. going to the school i should have gone to and study what i should have studied
4. become fluent in another language…probably french, but i really want to learn norwegian now, too (but that’s a separate goal)

there are a handful of other things that i should have done (and plenty I shouldn’t have) and in many ways i can’t have a do-over when it comes to those things, so i’ll have to work around those somehow.