fall in love again

I don’t know about love anymore. I was in love at one point in my life but it’s gone now and I don’t know if I’ll ever find it again. A lot of times, lust is confused for being love. I’ve done it. I think I’m giving up hope on finding real true love again in my life. I know there’s a strong possibility to find someone new and begin a relationship in my future but I don’t know if i’ll ever feel that indescribable love (the kind of love that makes your head spin). Today is a sad day for me.

I just might be caring too much now. We spent one evening together and it was the happiest I’ve been in months!! He’s so into me and making me feel good. He listens to me, amazingly!! I love his voice, I love how he snores, I love his whole demeanor. He could look like crap and he’s still good enough for me. How can this be happening? Is it possible that I could love someone again? I didn’t think it was. But as I sit here and I think about him, I smile…. He’s amazing.

You know you’re in love when you can’t fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams.

I could have fallen in love with him. I’m losing him to someone else though. I thought that maybe if I pursued this that maybe he would see that there is someone made especially for him in this world. I know that she’s not the one. I don’t know if he’ll ever see that. He feels pity for her and it bothers me inside. I think it could be something nice between us, but from the way things are looking, he won’t ever know it.

I just want to be loved. i want to be taken care of. I heard somewhere that your only allowed 3 loves in your life. I’ve had two, so maybe he’s out there somewhere waiting to meet someone like me and be my lucky number three, my lifetime love number three….