I'm doing 42 things
I’m back to Milly Theale and Kate Croy and loving it. I don’t think I’ve ever been as much inside of a novel as with Wings. I get so immmersed in it, however, that I daily postpone my goal of writing an outline for my paper. Instead, I endlessly read essays and journal articles and the original text. I should probably take a step back from this, gain some distance, and decide what interests me most and what I’d like to write about. I already know that I’m most fascinated by the Venetian episode, sensuousness, treachery, the romantic imagination. Why do I feel that I will miss out on all the interesting questions, and not be able to show my professors how much I know, if I limit myself to one topic? This is just being silly and evading the real work.
Blue_Van_Meer's Life List
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1. To live instead of exist
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2. be happy
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3. be more confident
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4. write my Henry James paper!
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5. write paper (12-15 p.) for F's sociology class (already did the presentation!) and hand in by Oct 1
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6. take early morning swims
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7. Go to therapy
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8. finish my degree
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9. Weekly list 10 things that either made me happy, proud or grateful, or that generally made life worth living
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10. Make love.
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11. trust
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12. feel beautiful
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13. stop chewing the inside of my mouth
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14. exercise regularly
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15. lose weight
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16. sell the house
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17. get out of debt
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18. stop wasting time on the internet
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19. Quit Smoking
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20. establish a routine of "dressing up" for the office
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21. expand my social circle
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22. Get more sleep
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23. Be on time
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24. get my thyroid levels under control
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25. have sex in the rain
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26. document my life better
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27. dance like no one is watching
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28. leave Neukoelln
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29. Welcome more couchsurfers
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30. purchase consciously: organic, local, fair trade...
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31. Take a road trip across the USA
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32. travel the world
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33. live in New York City
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34. get married
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35. have children
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36. Learn to play the piano
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37. Learn Spanish
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38. learn to ballroom dance
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39. re-learn french
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40. grow my own vegetables
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41. Live in NYC for at least a year, on a Greek island for a month, on the Californian/Oregon coast, in London, in a lighthouse for a week, and create a real home somewhere.
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42. Be granted the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and to have the wisdom to know the difference...
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- I’m glad that I’m the one making the decisions, and it’s a right I’m exercising even if it feels bad
- there’s a chance we’ll be better again, after all we’ve had phases like this before
- getting the credits for my sociology class n°1
- a romantic five minutes in the last week: he came home with nine roses, I had carefully selected nine different flowers for him, there we were
- going to the studio and working out after not having done so for 3 months
- weight loss (clothes bought last year and terribly neglected suddenly fit!)
- at the same: lust for food – or: enjoying food.
- shopping for clothes (and finding things I look good in)
- I guess I still love my hair, as before
- at least other people think we’re romantic (cf. roses above)
Whatever happened to quick decision-making in a busy age? The people interested in buying the house were supposed to call the realtor on Friday, after thinking hard about the price. Now it’s Tuesday night and I haven’t heard from him! :-(
