How do I know that it’s meant to be? How do I know he was made for me? I couldn’t hold back anymore. I knocked on his door last nite, scared to death! Afraid someone else would answer the door. Afraid he’d turn me away! My heart was pounding, I thought I was going to be sick.
He answered the door. All I needed was for him to open the door….
I feel sick to my stomach, I really do! I don’t know when it hit me. I thought I had moved on and things were going to be ok. I was going to be ok! I was so wrong. Those feelings are still there, strong as ever. I’ve already set things in motion to put us back together. I feel as though I won’t find happiness beyond us. This is crazy…....damn, damn, damn!!!
Well, I am not doing too good. Hell, I am not doing even a little bit good! I don’t know what my problem is, I just can’t get it together!
Ran into him during an ackward time and was forced to face our demons! I thought I was going to die! Guess what, I was the last man standing!!! By the time the initial shock wore off, I was good. I guess we all have that line drawn in the sand. Drugs and alcohol aren’t the only things we need Detoxed out of our systems!!!!!!!!
I am getting closer to that point. I am working on it every day. It’s not easy but I know it’s possible! Lately I’ve talked to several women about being in unhealthy relationships and trying to hold onto men that aren’t good for us and really could more than likely care less if we walk away! I want to be the first to walk away.
I’ve been coerced into actually working out 2-3x wkly at the gym! I will see what kind of results I get.
Well, I guess I am going to give this one up. A friend of mine is a personal trainer and has drove me crazy about going to the gym to specifically work on the abs. I guess I will start working out and try to make it part of the new changes in my life for 2008.
Right before christmas 07, I, along with my co-workers at a childrens hospital received a list of soldiers in Iraq. We each picked one person and wrote them a letter and sent them a x-mas card. That gave me a great feeling on one hand and sadness on the other hand because the soldiers were so far away from home and family.
I’ve lost 10 pounds so far! I feel better but not there yet! I have a personal trainer and I think he’s trying to kill me!!!!
We didn’t make love in the rain but we were in it and I didn’t notice how cold it was out there! I wanted him this night so badly but it couldn’t happen!
I am a mess! At the beginning of the summer I was 130. Now I am 150 which totally sucks big time! I am currently working out and changing my diet! Don’t think its working. I am going to keep going. What’s the point of getting a belly piercing when u can’t see your belly button????!!!!!
I looked up a couple pole dancing lessons in my area. It’s looks like fun especially if you can get a few friends to take lessons with you. I foresee lots of laughing if nothing else!!!
Went to Sea World this summer. I got the chance to play with the dolphins and feed them. I am not ready to give the swimming idea up. Being that close to them only excited me and made me more determined! It was really cool!!!!!!!!!!!!
I made it to September so I am safe. I never cut it in the fall! Too cold! I look like a wild child but I love it!!!!
It was beautiful, in a hot tub, in the rain, overlooking the river in Savannah, sipping Aliz’e. What more can I ask for? Oops, I forgot to mention, my sweetie was home and I was hangin out with my mom! Sucks doesn’t it!!!! Burnt up alot of minutes that weekend!
Well, my nails have finally grown pass those ugly ridges from wearing artificial nails for so long. They are about 1/2 inch over the tip of my fingers. That was difficult because everytime I had to dress up and go somewhere nice, I wanted to have nice long nails but I didn’t do it. I am over the hump and it’s down hill the rest of the way. I am now taking this off my list as, “I’ve done this!” Yea!!!
It was hard not buying other books that I wanted. But I am glad I made it a goal because I really wanted to finish my books and just wouldn’t sit still long enough to do so!
