alwayswishing

My boyfriend kevin and I got together by accident.We are both divorcies and were down on our luck. Kevin was friends with my step-sister and had a room for rent when I was looking for one. Between his 13-hour days and my 3 jobs we were able to start to get to know eachother. We decided after two months to try a relationship, I was hesitant because I felt unworthy, but we decided that trying couldn’t hurt and that it would satisfy our companionship needs. A few months later we found out that we were pregnant and through careful consideration we chose that we would go through with the pregnancy and keep the baby, thank god we did! We have now been together for just over two years, our son is 14 months, and kevin has a 7 year old and a 5 year old from his previous marriage. Before our son was born it was my wish to have an informal commitment ceremony before our higher power and our families for the sake of the baby, but I didn’t win that one. I had gotten ill durring my pregnancy and had to quit two of the jobs, the third on fired me two days before I was there a full year because I had my son, it’s legal trust me, I filed complaints and reports but that is all I can do. So I have been unemlpoyed since our son was two-weeks old and we have struggled month to month to keep things going. I am a part time student online, just started a Multi-Level Market venture and am on the hunt for a job. Relationship wise I still wake up in the mornings and think I am dreaming, statistically we should have never made it this far but every day is a blessing. We are still getting to know eachother, that will never end, and with me being 7 years younger I should have more of a social drive…but that’s all him. We even eachother out on so many levels. We have both learned from the past and have communicated things into this relationship that we didn’t have in the past. It is so easy for either of us to state our opinions or do what we want to for a night without the other getting upset. The respect and communication surpasses any expectations and neither of us could be happier. We have not gotten married because of our finances. Right now we are stuggling to stay no more than a month behind and with the school year starting up we know finances will be worse. We don’t realy want a lot, he wants a nice band and I want a solitare with a simple band as far as rings go. June would be amazing in a floor length off-white sundress. We have talked about just a simple very very small ceremony and then when it can be afforded a large reception with all our friends and family. His first wedding was 5k, mine was 2k, and we know we will not be able to afford that much anytime in the near future. If I win enough money for my dream wedding, it would simply be a blessing. I’m tearing! It would be a blessing and I don’t know how many others would be as appreciative, I would even be extatic if I was to split the winnings with 9 others! My dream is to be married to the man I wake up with every morning, who I know will be there every night, and who I can trust to grow old with. I thought I was in love before…I never knew that this kind of love existed until Kevin came into my life!