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For some reason I went to the liquor store the night before last and drank 2 beers while puttering around the house (cracked open the 3rd and threw it out)....last night I had another one and had to work to get through the 2nd one (mainly because it seemed wasteful to throw out another beer).

Funny, I’ve been doing well…still drinking socially (one or two) and stayed out of the liquor store for a month….probably it’s the stress of getting out of town before my UK trip. Also went to lunch with some new friends on Tuesday then saw them again at the running club…one mentioned getting a beer after the run (I didn’t go)...however, mabye it’s just the old habit resurfacing again…and the old stress-outlet being used again.

So I’m on week 27 without a binge (less than 4 beers or 1 bottle of wine). Next week will be week 28 which was my outside goal (then I go to the UK and try not to mess up with their very good beer…probably the exchange rate and the beers being $10 will deter me).

Anyway the reason for this post is the interesting evening I had with my brother last night. We spent some time getting my phone/computer ready for my trip so I can put pics on the internet and he drank 3 beers while I only had one. That one was put in my hand by him…then we went to the bar for dinner and he had 3 more beers and I had and iced tea.

This is actually an amazing event for me….since I was in my early 20’s and he was a teenager drinking was something that kind of bonded us (now maybe it’s fancy phones and genetics) in the past I’d go over there and get so drunk I’d have to spend the night. At the lowest point in my life…when I had to throw my b-friend in jail I lived at my brother’s house for a few months and holy crap did I (we) drink….there was one morning I was waiting for the bus to go to work and had to sit on the bench with my eyes closed because my head hurt so bad.

Anyway, to all of you out there who are just starting…keep trying if you have a set-back (and I found it much more motivating to not start over on day one everytime just cross out the bad days and then go to day 2 or 7 or 20 or 80…whichever you are on)...I think it is bs that this goal says 2 months…who came up with that….somebody without a real drinking problem I’d guess….I’m 3 years in and still haven’t ‘quit drinking’ yet…but I have ‘quit binging’.

Good Luck!

So, I made it through 6 months w/o a binge (took 6 months and 8 days…but whatever….that’s kind of funny my triathlon training is taking a similar turn…so far I’m 2 days behind…but I don’t care….if it takes longer than the schedule says it doesn’t matter getting the workouts in is what counts).

So a week ago I chickened out of going to a bar/beer/run because I didn’t want to have a relapse. So I think my new goal it to be able to be comfortable in any social sitation with alochol and not feel that I have to drink to fit in. In other words no more than one or two and always be under the DUI limit (roughly no more than one drink an hour). I think for now I won’t attend a beer/bar/run until I get back from my trip to the drinking countries (England/Scotland/Ireland) and see how I do there. Then depending on how that went I’ll try a beer run….however, I’m thinking maybe waiting another 6 months might take care of it.