it’s finally happened! i’m still concerned about my weight, yes. but obsessed? not in the least. i’m still at a healthy weight and i haven’t gained any more or less for months. sure i’d like to lose those pesky ten pounds but it honestly isn’t worth my sanity. i’ve finally accepted it, and i couldn’t be happier.
i wasn’t sure if i would EVER find somebody again, and sure enough, he came my way. he’s the most perfect, amazing, wonderful man i have ever met in my life.
now i just have to wait and see if he’ll actually fall in love with ME. :\
UPDATE: i have a feeling that he never will. i also have a feeling that things may end very, very soon.
i jumped on a scale, and it said 140. i was beyond thrilled at the time, but since then i’m back up to 151 and let me tell you, i was absolutely miserable when i was 140. i had everybody telling me to gain weight and i was being told that i look unhealthy. my mindset was completely warped as i had been starving myself to get that thin. i made excuses to people talking about how i had no money and that’s why i was so skinny. in reality, i was choosing not to eat.
i’m much happier at my current weight and if i ever hit 140 again it’s going to be the healthier way. plus, i think my healthiest weight is honestly where i am now.
