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pinknkitsch

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pinknkitsch's Life List

  1. 1. reflect daily in a 'one sentence' journal
    108 entries . 106 cheers     		98 people
  2. 2. Support World Aids Day
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  3. 3. Weekly, reflect on 7 things Im grateful for : )
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  4. 4. Weekly cheerbomb someone Im subscribed to, a newbie and anyone else I like to cheer !
    10 entries . 46 cheers     		1 person
  5. 5. Post random UPs, random DOWNs & random INBETWEEN's *
    15 entries . 45 cheers     		1 person
  6. 6. notice things that are already good
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  7. 7. Beat my depression
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  8. 8. Get through the next few months without going insane, deeply depressed or have high anxiety levels.Get through the next few months being gently assertive, giving myself some space & emotionally well !
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  9. 9. Make my own Christmas gifts
    2 entries . 68 cheers     		22 people
  10. 10. make my own christmas cards
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  11. 11. Continue to share my love of child-like joys : )
    1 entry . 52 cheers     		1 person
  12. 12. Coven
    11 team members . 2 entries . 13 cheers     		12 people
  13. 13. disclose 43 random THINGS about myself
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  14. 14. Practice random acts of kindness
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  15. 15. be more assertive.
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  16. 16. visit my friends
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  17. 17. Re-design my garden & buy a gate !
    5 entries . 58 cheers     		1 person
  18. 18. Let go of negative memories.
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  19. 19. Grow old gracefully & disgracefully in equal'ish' measure..
    3 entries . 64 cheers     		2 people
  20. 20. Start a Buddy Check 12 team here on 43things, in support of Breast Cancer Awareness. Do your self-exam the 12th of every month.
    230 team members . 7 entries . 16 cheers     		201 people
  21. 21. learn to type
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  22. 22. Identify and Rid Myself of 43 Items of Ãœberclutter
    8 entries . 28 cheers     		25 people
  23. 23. Remember that well-behaved women rarely make history.
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  24. 24. Post 43 of my favorite works of art
    3 entries . 51 cheers     		22 people
  25. 25. Take photos of 43 strangers
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  26. 26. Post 43 dolls in my collection.
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  27. 27. Take 43 photos of Washing Lines !
    2 entries . 30 cheers     		1 person
  28. 28. sell things on etsy
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  29. 29. live by the sea
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  30. 30. Convene
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  31. 31. Start a website
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  32. 32. see the northern lights
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  33. 33. revamp my goals for 2009
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  34. 34. Surprise Cluricaune with some birthday wishes on November 30th, and maybe offer him a foreign beer or two
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Recent entries
Post random UPs, random DOWNs & random INBETWEEN's * (read all 15 entries…)
Downs. 23 hours ago

Im so sorry….
I hate myself for not being brave enough or adult enough to
keep up with you all but it felt just so hard and I hate now that
I have come on and had caused some concern. I feel selfish and pathetic.
I don’t deserve such thoughts.
Im finding myself in a low dark place that has come with such pace and mean-ness that Ive been at aloss how to just be.
I can not say why it has decended, I am still in it trying to work it out. For me it has come so forcefully that its left me questioning so much. I must be so weak to let this happen at the speed and strenghth it has.
I hate myself for this.
I hate the weakness and the self indulgence.
It only fuels self loathing and my anger with myself.
I know its an illness, but the cruelness seems so personal.
I know I will get through this…....I have before.
Only this time it feels so much more mocking as I felt I had made some progress and enjoying the balance I had worked at.
I now know I hav’nt worked enough.
I feel foolish.
I want to truely thankyou all for your loving thoughts and support,
I wept just reading them tonight.
Tears for myself but much more in gratitude of love.
I think, know, you are such wonderful friends.
I hope to thank you all personally but at the moment Im still teary and feeling so small.
(((((hugs)))) to you all
Love
Paula
x

Dec 02, 05:14PM PST | 18 cheers | 12 comments


reflect daily in a 'one sentence' journal (read all 108 entries…)
29.11.08 4 days ago

How quickly the shadow has fallen, my enties now seem mocking.

Nov 29, 01:51PM PST | 21 cheers | 13 comments


Void..... 4 days ago

Containing no matter; empty.
Not occupied; unfilled.
Completely lacking; devoid: void of understanding.
Ineffective; useless.
An empty space.
A vacuum.
An open space or a break in continuity; a gap.
A feeling or state of emptiness, loneliness, or loss.

Nov 29, 04:37AM PST | 20 cheers | 5 comments


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I want to:

The world wants to...

become a vegan watch all ER episodes dance build a lightsaber Sing sail around the world Become a Doctor Learn to play the guitar John wants to get fit redecorate my room go to college Beat S.A.D. this year makeout with daniel radcliffe Finish all projects on my home tongue piercing take better care of my skin create an AMV jenrigs wants to get in shape be a buddhist Go skiing get into college not worry about what others think of me valigarferum wants to identify 100 things that make me happy (besides money) Build A Simple Wardrobe be able to run the mile under 10 minutes build a house fall in love with the right person eat more