Be uncompromisingly true to myself

I have been studying for the bar exam. It is tedious and my heart really isn’t in it. The exam is at the end of July. I have already been through this once (another state) and passed. Ah! but it’s such a big drag.
Ah, procrastinating. I just made myself a cup of tea. I have procrastinated by reading every single thing on the internet. I used up all of my cheers.
I browsed some stuff on volunteering. I think I might try to do some volunteer “stuff.” Just got to figure out what.

Ah well. Back to it. I hope you are all having a great day / night whatever the case may be.

I am dressed to go work out! but I just want to go in the kitchen and eat the bag of chips! BAD BAD Brookie!

I haven’t had time to post on this site in sooo long, it seems. So much is going on!
Right now I am on vacation and visiting a lot of family before I move across country.
I moved out of my house and am now looking for a tenant.
I have about 2 weeks left on active duty and right now I am on terminal leave which is FABULOUS.
aaahhh!! Life is good.

I have a theory that alarm clocks cause heart attacks. Every time mine goes off and I’m asleep I get the sensation that I am just going to jump out of my skin!! I hate it. Maybe I need to get one that sings morning songs to me all nice and sweet so it doesn’t scare the crap out of me.

I just read online that someone stole a newborn baby from a hospital in Texas.
I would be sooooo pissed off if anyone stole my kid. I would choke the hell out of them with my bare hands.

My neighbor just got home and now I can hear him listening to his stupid music. Note to self: Never, never live in a townhouse again.

I am tired. I was up too late last night being the DD and taking care of my (drunk) friends. The whole night was a less than so-so time. I was disappointed because we were going to go dancing, but when we got to the dance club (a really big warehouse which is half a country bar and half a dance club), they had the dance club half set up as a concert and they were having heavy metal bands play in there. I was pissed!! As a not so huge fan of country music (= I hate country music), and similarly not a big fan of heavy metal (hate it), I did not enjoy myself.

I would like to go over to my neighbors and bitch slap him for not turning down his crappy music.

right now I am pissed off. I hate it when I get like this.

The greatest thing about tomorrow is I get to sleep late. I don’t even have to set my alarm clock. I am so happy about that!!

I am stealing some ideas from my buddy Mark Goulston MD and his fabulous book I am reading. These are rules about respecting yourself.

I am going to epitomize the following rules for being uncompromisingly me.

1. Say what you mean and mean what you say.
2. Stop fooling yourself and deceiving others.
3. Start standing up for yourself.
4. Don’t give up when things get difficult.
5. Do more for others.
6. Become more reliable
7. Stop complaining
8. Take charge
9. Show more courage
10. Be more decisive
11. Stop blaming things on other people
12. Control your anger
13. Own up to your feelings
14. Give more and take less

these are my additions
15. Be respectful and kind to others
16. Be patient
17. When you don’t want to do something, say no!

I am going to visit my parents and my sister and her family. My nephews are having their First birthday party. It is so wonderful because one of them has already had two heart surgeries and we are so lucky to have him. I am so excited!

Today was a better day, I was off from work, and the first thing I did was check my email and find a posting for the perfect job, in the city where I want to move. I was so shocked, I could only laugh! Then I spent a huge chunk of time reworking my resume and my cover letter. I hope, hope, hope I get an interview. This would just be so great!!