believe i am beautiful

people keep telling me im one of the most beautiful girls theyve ever seen, but i deny it..

and deny it..

and i still think its true what i believe and that people lie to me all the time..

yup…

thats immaturity for ya right there,sigh

_~signed
ugly..

I think I’m beautiful, and really love myself, but I still have those days that all I can see is imperfections, things that could be better… But I’m getting there; those days are slowly becoming further and farther in between.

Slowly but surely I am starting to believe i am beautiful. For what makes me who I am and what makes me different but I can’t help but at times wish I was just like everyone else. I’m so different and I think that it is what people like about me but sometimes I can’t help but think I would be “better” if i was just like everyone else.

beautiful. I don’t know why though. I’ve been called beautiful, I just don’t feel beautiful.

And it’s bloody depressing.

i finally believe it!!! i mean somedays i feel better than others, but overall i realized beautiful is not just outward but inward. to me being beautiful is something that needs to be maintained by not letting yourself get caught up in gossip and not letting go of who truely are.

I have come to realize it’s basically a state of mind..stop looking at your image and picking it to pieces! Most of your ‘flaws’ are invisible to everyone else except you..
I have such a bad habit of standing in front of the mirror and critizing every aspect of my reflection..and it’s bringing me down..
I get compliments from plenty of people but i totally disregard them and focus on all the negative things that have been said about me in the past..i have to learn to stop this..and start believing I am beautiful..!
Same with everyone else..!

wow, my fella is saying things now that i would have freaked out about – i love ur bum, i think ur hips look really nice in that dress, ur arms n really strong….and i didnt freak out! i know that my hips n bum n tops of my legs r not quite as i want them to be, but im starting to think thats ok, i can work on it, as long as i like or don’t particularly mind how the rest of me looks, that shd b ok. i even put the fella’s hand on my bare tummy the other day. i didnt squeal and cover my belly up with my usual 3 layers, i actually put his hand there and let him stroke my tum, even kinda enjoying the safeness of it all. wow, well done me!
kinda a blowing-my-own-trumpet post, but im proud of myself, so there, lol.

Loz xxx

ok, i hav started to like my hair again, i have changed my mascara, and i am looking after my latest tattoos in order to look more like i wd like to look like! lets hope these bring me a step closer

Loz. xxx

as I left for my first school dance of my 8th grade year, I snagged a look at myself in the mirror and for the first time I honestly thought I looked beautiful. And you know what? My crush asked me to dance! I think that you could be the most beautiful person in the world, but if you don’t think that you’re pretty, you won’t be.

i think i really do most of the time, but sometimes there are days when im in a bad mood or dont have the time or energy to put into looking nice and it just bums me out i think, and i dont feel so great about myself. so i guess the point of this goal now is more to remind myself that what my hair likes any particular day is not a measure of my beauty. i need to focus on the fact that beauty is all of what God has given me, and I shouldn’t ignore it or take it for granted.