find true love

Sometimes it’s not as easy as it seems,
Having to put on a face,
A big smile bright like sun beams,
It feels like I did back before I started the race,
Back when I was un-noticed,
Screaming out for attention,
Knowing there was no interest in the remotest,
It raised some tension.

Eventually I got that gut renching feeling,
My head so confused,
Emotions running through my whole being,
The feelings of being used,
That feeling was my heart,
The hurt,
Tearing it apart,
Surpisingly i felt like dirt.

And now its just the same,
As it was before,
Who can we blame,
Even now it’s you that I adore,
A secret I still cry sometimes,
And it’s because of you,
We were like two dimes,
And everyday I wish we could just go back and redo.

I’m from Clear Lake tx, I hate all the girls here they are no good they only go for wussy boys cause their daddys have money and they all walk around with a stuck up snotty attitude. I now have an intense hatred for all women all I see is Clear lake girls and they disgust me, I’m a good person I make good money I drive a camero and I’m built really good just not preppy anyways there seems no end to this misery, I want to go to Austin next year good people there and a nice city. I just hate Clear lake girls with a whole heart and I blame them for all my pain and bitterness I view them all as the enemy. any advice here? I know I am good looking i scowl alot its a relfex i can’t help it.

Ain’t he a dear? (lol my shoulder’s in the corner :D)

“But what?” you say?
Well, he’s in love with someone else.
Go figure.

I want to find someone who can love me back. I’ve had a couple of relationships, but they were online and only lasted a few days.

Whatever.
Carly, the one he loves, refused him.

I’m asking him out Wednesday.

Wish me luck. C:

this is the only thing that matters ..
but what is it . do you know .. please dont tell me that it is the psychological emotion or something similar. these are all study stuff . im not here to get my degree in Love course. I want an answer , that meet the heart and not to mind.

I thought I found it but maybe I didnt. But we never know. I might already found it somewhere but I dont see it around now.

I used to write lists about who the perfect man would be for me. I was detailed to a T. Then, I started a love affair with myself I threw the lists away and made a list for myself with my goals and how I wanted to be and started working towards them. I made a list of how great I was.

Presto! He appeared. He’s nothing like the list that I wrote with it’s qualities, expectations and judgements. In fact, he’s not at all what I thought I wanted when we first met. Over time though, he’s been working towards the same goals I have and I’ve found myself deeply in love with his drive, sense of humor and willingness to improve himself in his own ways. He doesn’t have to live up to my expectations because his are just fine the way they are.

Who knows what the future holds? I try to enjoy what I have with Randy day by day. Even if it doesn’t work out forever, I’ve had love and I’ve been loved. To me, that’s priceless.

i neverrrr loved anyone like i did to dis person.. he has opened my eyes..he is sooo sweet n nice and caring n he never lied to me.. not even once…... what ever i do i cant go a day wid out thinkin of him.. i’m in love. i know cuz b4 i had crushes who had gf n i was never jealous of dem. but dis guy…... i want dat girl out of his life. but also want him to be happy, i love him soooo much we are friends since a year now nov 14 is our first whole year of our friendship.. i wont tell I LOVE HIM ….yet…....

is everywhere.
and I want to find it in another person, and within myself.
I want a boy to love me for who I am, not what I look like.
I want to be loved forever.
and never let go.

I want someone who’d be all mine

You’ve heard of Build a Bear workshops in the mall, and with all of the new technology, it still baffles me that we can’t build a spouse. I’ve been single for well over a year now, and have had plenty of time to concoct my ideal of the perfect boyfriend/ husband. This is what I have came up with:

Appearance

Broad Shoulders

Broad shoulders are always nice. For some reason, something about them resonates masculine in my brain. Broad shoulders seem strong, and I need a strong man in my life.

Strong Masculine Hands

Hands are important. Hands are for holding, sharing, caressing and caring. Nice hands are a turn on :).

Nose

For some reason, I love men with strong noses…not necessarily a Big Bird beak, but something prominent is hott,lol. (Jake Gyllenhaal has a rather hot nose.)

Pretty Blue Peepers (green eyes are nice too)

For some reason, blue eyes soothe me. Come to think of it, I have only dated guys with blue eyes. Hmm….

Dark Hair

Dark hair accentuates light colored eyes and seems mysterious and intelligent.

Teeth

Must have nice white teeth and good breath lol. No one wants to kiss Mr.Butters.

Tattoos and Piercings

Tattoos and piercings are a total turn on to me and they are one of the first things I notice about the opposite sex. To me they symbolize self expression with a side of rebellion :).

Style

I love guys who have their own sense of style and don’t conform to what GQ says is “in”. If they like it, they wear it. He should take pride in his appearance, but definitely not take longer than me to get ready. For some reason, if I see a guy with a Famous Stars and Straps shirt on, he is (for the most part) automatically hot. Rockers are hot.

Personality/ Character

Funny- makes me laugh…period. Good day/ bad day…smiling and laughter are fun in and of themselves. A guy who is fun to be around.

HONEST!!-doesn’t play games with my head. Liars suck. The truth always comes out. Cheaters need not apply unless they want their head bashed in =D.

Authentic-true to his own inner being and presents himself as such.

Intellectual-able to teach me new things, able to hold and enjoy having deep conversations.

Stimulating-in every aspect (intellectually, physically, spiritually)

Passionate-passionate about love, life, & things that hold his interest…someone who is able to evoke passion in me.

Stable-grounded yet open minded.

Supportive-he supports me in hard times as well as good and is able to offer advice and strength when I need it.

Inspirational-inspires me in all aspects.

Affectionate-cuddling and holding hands are the best. Kisses and hugs rock too.

“Street” Smart-I want a survivor baby….yeah, lol.

Motivated-knows what he wants in life and is driven to make it happen.

Spontaneous-someone who enjoys living (sometimes by the seat of their pants)

Organized-this would be helpful, because I sure am not :D.

Open Minded-willing to try new things. Closed minded people make me sick.

Reliable-someone who is responsible, trustworthy, and always has my back :).

Confident-believes in himself.

Wise-thinks before he acts, has learned from life and the past.

Strong-emotionally, spiritually, and physically.

Respectful-people respect him and he respects them.

Thoughtful-includes me in plans & considers me before making plans with friends.

Romantic-does/says things that come from the heart to show that he loves me.

Not Materialistic-but appreciates nice things.

Emotionally expressive-tells me how he is feeling.

Highly Sexual-I like to get laid—a lot.

Compassionate-generally cares about others and their well being.

Open To Compromise-willing to discuss conflicts and meet me half way.

Religious-believes in God.

Home Life and Hobbies

Family guy-puts family first (including me)

Good provider-material needs are always meet and the bills are paid on time

Great dad & husband-makes time for us. Family dinner and vacations rock.

Loves music-music is life.

Loves live music-live music rocks.

Balanced-likes to stay at home and enjoy a movie, but also likes to go out every once in a while.

That’s not asking too much!!