be strong

An incident occurred some months ago. Someone I knew and trusted in the workplace behaved inappropriately towards me. Fortunately I managed to escape this situation before it got out of hand. I advised management, so at least I wasn’t alone on this.
I ended up taking a couple of days off work and cried it away. I don’t know if he will ever realise how lucky he is, that I did not expose his behaviour to his wife and family and the rest of his colleagues. I didn’t talk to my family about this either.
I posted this goal to remind myself to be emotionally strong, to remember that I also have many people around me who love and will look after me. I feel like I am over this incident now, but have learned not everyone is to be treated with the same level of respect and trust.

Pretty self-explanatory…
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Im taking one day at a time, thats all i can do. And its getting easier as i go.

This is a little bit of a challenge. So when I do it, I feel like I have accomplished something really good. It is good for my confidence. Riding clears my head. It causes me to feel energized. It is sweet!

I’m feeling some of the calmer leveling off that can happen with the passage of time. Things at work are so drama driven right now. After work today we came together to informally discuss problems. It was cathartic, as there were no representatives from administration to invalidate our perceptions. We are actively seeking solutions to these problems. I gotta run, so this may be edited later :)

blind sided. I make excuses. You know, blame mean people. The idea of fighting is pretty darn foreign to me. It is to my children also, which causes me concern. I’m not even sure how to deal with this.

I’m too sensitive. Every little criticism I take personally. I know I shouldn’t but it’s hard. I tend to think about things over and over until it wears me down. It’s so unhealthy. People are so mean…so negative…they enjoy getting others upset. I know I shouldn’t let it bother me but it’s difficult to just forget things.

I’m still going to try though. I won’t let them win. I just have to be patient.

should just accept that most of my 43 Things are NOT as acheivable, as I would like them to be. This being one of them. So, instead, I sat on my couch and had myself a good cry! The sobbing, can’t catch your breath cry, much like a three a year old, except for the black masscara lines running down my eyes! But it felt good..really, really good..I can’t say I felt “stronger”, but I feel slightly better that I just let it all come out!

I guess the fact I’m still here proves I’m stronger than I know. Everyday is such a struggle for me. There’s a constant battle in my mind. It’s so tiring I just want to give up and lay down. But for some reason I’m still here.

I took my share of huge knocks….on a personal level…on a work level….
Sometimes, I think, it’s ok…to feel not so strong