get a better job

I had to quit my job due to scheduling problems. I’m actually trying to either get rehired at my old job or get a newer different one.

So I guess I’m doing terrible at this.

On another note. I am working on writing more, with the end goal of perhaps being able to sell and publish my work. I’m still in the very early stages though,so this probably isn’t practical right now.

it has been about 7 months since i wrote on this, and the whole time i have been working at a avionics company as a temp admin assistant. my position has never been made permanent and xmas eve is my last day. then i will be unemployed and jobless all over again. I am never good enough. screw the corporate ratrace and bureacracy, sick of it all, it doesnt suit me, or my personality, i dont wanna be stuck in that corporate race anyway, i may have to get a stop gap job for a while till i can figure out my next step, ultimately i would like to start my own business, but i think i would need to be working another job whist i do that possibly. i might need to do the stop gap job for a while (dont really want to but dont have a lot of options)

sigh… its tough…

Nearly there ,got a good few promising interviews with high chance of success because of my experience! :) wish me luck!

I would like something more strategic and bold. Something where my work doesn’t rely on so many other groups, and there is not dozens of other engineers doing the same exact thing. This year I would like to apply for Renewable Energy Policy Leader and LM6000 Marketing Manager positions…to find a job where my creativity and resourcefulness is on display.

I’ve come to a realization: i can’t work for someone i don’t respect.
The major hindrance to my 10th goal is my boss. I hate where i work; it was meant to be way-station only.
I had a decent job before this one, with a great Boss who shielded me from a lot of bs and i got along with extremely well… but the Institution was in dire straights (very bad leadership) and they were having trouble making payroll (they were selling off stock/assets to do so). I resigned on good terms, i got a little send-off party and a card, it was all very surreal. I had found this current place. What can i say…? It seemed like a survival move at the time.

But now i’m very nervous. The job market gets worse and worse. I don’t make enough $ here, more importantly, i only work 4 days. No benefits, no sick time or anything. The boss is a real scroodge. ex: she had me switch my day off (usually wed.) for labor day so that she could close the shop and not pay me. she declares to other workers that “it’s ridiculous, that business owners should have to give raises just because the cost of living goes up.”

Point is… eventually, i’m going to be out on my ass, alone. (i.e. divorced) With car/edu/cc payments, my own rent and 2 dogs to boot. I’ve got time now (we have to sell the house) and although it sounds strange, my husband is supportive, generous & relatively understanding.
So i’m trying to look at this as a window.
1. It’s not like i’m out of work. I have a paycheck coming in, mediocre tho it may be.
2. Someday i want to have my own biz, but now is definitely NOT the time to tackle that as well.
3. If i’m patient, shrewd and persistent, i will find something that is better than jumping from the frying pan into the fire.

I’ve just started this quest in earnest. I’m not as diligent as I should be, because the search is very frustrating, and the jobs I see out there I don’t necessarily want that much. Yes, anything is better than now. I’m not working in the field I want to be in, the work is boring and/or non-existent and not challenging, and I’ve really just spent enough time being frustrated with it. The goal is to make it to a year of employment here (yes, it got that bad that quickly). After that, I want to leave ASAP. That year mark is the beginning of January. I will either: A) have a job before then, hopefully this wont’ be an issue (unlikely) B) have an internship and take a part time job to pay the rent (more likely) or C) give it no more than a month or two after that and then quit anyway and volunteer and harrass my way into /something/.

I can do this. No more than four more months here. That’s what I keep telling myself to keep my spirits up.

One that will pay me for a continuing education and also keeps me busy most of the time.

is not so urgent , because I just had my work performance evaluation and I renegociated my salary on this occasion so now everything’s all right.

Because of pain I’m having in my right hand (mainly). No conclusive diagnosis. I was told to take anti inflammatories, ice it, wear a brace, and take time off work. Rrrrrrrrrrrrright. Taking time off work doesn’t really work when you’re self-employed. I mean, I can take as much time as I’d like, but I’d quickly run into problems paying bills and saving money and such.

So I just spent the last three hours or so looking at online ads for jobs in the area. Guess what? I’m pretty much only qualified to do menial labour, retail, and the occaisonal receptionist position. So much for my lofty ideas of making oodles of money at something other than the job I already have.

To cap it all off, while I have no clients booked tomorrow, my coworker called me and left me a message saying that I “had” to open for her because she had to stay home with her sick daughter. I want to call her back and tell her too effing bad, get your wife to take the afternoon off so you can work the morning, or “it’s not my problem your slobbery child licks every sick kid at daycare, do deal”, or better yet, just call our boss and tell her to suck my ass.

Of course, I will do none of the above, because I am a pushover loser who bends over and takes it up the arse at every possible chance. And now I’m a pushover loser who takes it up the arse with a busted hand that is only going to get worse as time goes on, but I’m so specifically qualified, I can’t get any other job that pays as well (HAR HAR HAR) as this one, so I’ll stay here and aggravate this condition and eventually end up with claw hands, rocking in my chair in the corner talking to myself.

• Yes, I do realise how pathetic this entry is. But I’m feeling pathetic and whiny and “poor-me” right now and I really can’t see any good that’s going to come out of this situation. I DESPISE my so-called boss, and can barely tolerate my whiny coworkers who get away with murder. So please, allow me this rant, and think good “resolution” thoughts for me, if you could.

Decided to just work my current job as a bartender/barback/doorman 2 days a week instead of 6 and this means I have to get out there in the hunt again and find another one asap

I would like to do after school arts programming at a school 3 blocks away to see what would happen.

I plan on centering around creating portfolios and showing,critiquing and trading art work for 9-12th graders.