stop putting myself down

Oh yea i do this alot and i need a change, i just got to tell myself im not always the one to blame, its not always my fault. It seemed like every time something went wrong, i would just beat myself up about it. And i was really my own bully, i would curse myself at any old thang. But all this has got to stop, i now have the best thang that has ever came into my life and she is drifting because of my way i talk about myself, she will sit there and try and tell me different but i never listened or wanted to. All that is goin to change, starting now.

yeah, i do this wayyyy too often. in fact, i think this is the root of my problem…

I grew up getting picked on which triggered my putting myself down. People used to say negative things and one day I started to accept it and think I was a nobody. I started doing drugs to cover my problems and try to feel “normal” again but it didnt work. To this day I have mood swings where some days Ill feel very confident and other days Ill be right back where I started feeling like shit. Does anyone have any advice, I really cant fix this problem on my own…

I honestly feel that I have stopped putting myself down. I feel so much better about myself. I honestly don’t think that i’ve said one mean or bad thing about myself in two weeks! I think I’ve finally stopped talking down on myself.

Today is the first day that i will try to stop putting myself down. I tend to do it too much. Either I’ll put myself down by saying im ugly (yet in my heart i know im really good looking) but i still say it. I try not to but it still comes out. There’s more but i’ll just start workin on it.

I just dedcided that i was a good person. I know I am so i don’t need anyone to tell me so. I know now that everything isn’t always my fault. It’s okay. I feel a whole lot better these days.

I’m not completely shit.

I wish i could believe my bf when he says that he really finds me attractive and that and that he isnt like other people i hve known or known of that put me down all the time. My ex where complete twats putting me down a lot but the person im with doesnt but i still sometimes think, Im not good enough for him and i want to stop pushing him away because he is the One x

I so often get the jokes in about myself before anybody else can and all I do is draw their attention to facets about me that they had not even noticed.

man it’s really hard to stop the cycle

and after a while people start believing that you really are a worthless piece of shit and then it’s even more impossible to overcome this

so why do i do it to myself