live laugh love

im from los angeles, i have lived in london for the past 4 years, i am now back home in l.a.

i am conflicted i miss my mates back in ldn

i crave newness, and life here feels old, i am thinking of going to japan for a year.

not sure tho…

i could go back to my london town, but i need a constant change.. i need to figure something out, and something soon
xx

i just broke up with my less than 2 years boyfriend….i just need to move on! so what i am doing now is live laugh and LOvE

and move to amsterdam.

i’m not always depressed anymore. finally i thought it would never end. but now i’m always happy and i have a lot of great friends and i’ve grown to trust them. and i think i’m on my way to love… :\ ♥ ♥ ♥

To Love – can be many things from the love of a best friend, to the pasionate love of a woman, to the unconditional love for my kids. The Love I seek to achieve is that deeper love between a man and a woman.
Love is not a ring, it is not just moving in together, it is not the sharing of bills and aquiring material things together. It is a deeper Love. It is when two spirits become one, when two hearts beat as one, when two bodies feel as one, and when two minds think as one. It is when nothing else really matters. That is what I want. I believe that exists and I have to be patient. When I find it I have to be able to give all of my love and not protect my heart with a brick wall.

To laugh – it is important to be able to laugh at myself. To laugh can be a simple chuckle or an uncontollable laugh that brings tears. I laugh at simple things, I laugh at people who try to be perfect and really are not, I laugh at my sons words, I laugh at my daughter’s silly incidents, my grandma’s laugh used to make me laugh, my Mom when she does her “Blonde” things. There are certain friends that make me smile and laugh just in their presence.

Comedy – Monte Python, the Far Side, Seinfeld, My name is Earl, Saturday Night Live, The Pink Panther, Love You to Death. Eddie Murphy makes me laugh just looking at him, Robin Williams, Steve Martin. The Blue Colar Comedy tour, Bob and Tom.

To Laugh is to Not Cry. I don’t need to be with a woman that makes me cry. I don’t need to be around a person that has a negative outlook on life or is always pressuring me for more than I am ready to give.

What is it to live? It is to spend my time doing things I enjoy, eating foods I like, being with people that make me happy, visiting places that I enjoy. It is waking up and being alive in that I am aware of everything and everyone around me. My senses are keen! Being alive means that I am free and do the things that I feel like doing.

To Live is not to die. It is not being controlled by someone else. It is not accommodating everyone else and forgeting what I want. It is not being restricted by so many rules.

Things that hamper my living are work, other people, and not taking risks.