commit to something

Boyfriends, friends, going on a trip, buying something big, it could be anything. I just get so scared at the thought of being responsible for someone else’s happiness or taking care of something for someone else or being around someone for long periods of time while i am in a new place(trips). I seriously have never committed to anything, i have never had a real relationship, i constantly change friends, never bought anything big i have had to pay for, i have changed colleges 3 times, i always flake out on trips with friends… what can i do ??

Last summer, I wanted to get my own computer. I had been using my sister’s computer and I broke it, on accident of course. I spent most of my summer working hard to earn $500 of spare cash to buy it. It felt like forever. After I bought it, it broke again and I had to wait almost another month until I got it.

I never stop using it. :-)

I cannot commit to anything!! I always SAY I am going to do something but never do. OR I will start in all gung ho but fizzle out almost immediately!!

i always start something, and im completely motivated.. then after a while i get distracted and loose interest. life, love, school, etc- never fails. im going to work on this. so far school is actually my biggest commitment. im not leaving until i have a degree.

Since i made this goal i haven’t visited this site once until today, so i really haven’t gotten around to commiting to too much. Hmm. I think i forgot it was a goal.