Realize that some people are never going to be the people you thought they might be and be ok with that

i never love nobody fully
always one foot on the ground
and by protecting my heart truly

i got lost
in the sound

i hear in my mind
all of these voices
i hear in my mind
all of these words
i hear in my mind
all of this music
and it breaks my heart

and it breaks my heart, and it breaks my h-e-a-r-t

**SUPPOSE
I never ever met you.
Suppose we never fell in love.
Suppose I never ever let you
kiss me so sweet
and so soft.

Suppose I never ever SAW YOU.
Suppose you never ever called.

Suppose I kept on singing love sings
just to break
my own
fall

just to break my f-a-l-l

(all my friends say that of course it’s gonna get better, gonna get better better better better)

oh, i never love nobody fully.
always
one foot on the ground.

and by protecting my heart
truly
i got lost
in
the
sounds

i hear in my mind, all of these voices
i hear in my mind, all of these words
i hear in my mind, all of this music
and it breaks
my
heart
and it breaks my heart
and it breaks my heart

i hear in my mind
all of these voices
i hear in my mind
all of these words
i hear in my mind
all of this music
and it breaks my heart
and it breaks my heart
it breaks my h-e-a-r-t

breaks my heart
breaksmyheart. anditbreaksmyheart, it breaksmyheart, and it breaksmheart,anditbreaksmyheart.

to everyone I know.

I have learned and realized this the hard way. I have learned that just because I think of a person in a certain way, it doesn’t necessarily mean that’s who they are. Many people put on false fronts. This is okay though. I discover the real person underneath (for better or worse) and adjust my relationship with them accordingly. I don’t need to waste my time with false hopes of who a person could be or spend time with fake people. I’m glad that I’ve realized this sooner rather than later.

I think I’ve done this, maybe not for everyone on the planet but just for one person that really hurt me. I feel better now and accept what happened and I’m over it.

“After the rain has fallen
After the tears have washed your eyes
You’ll find that I’ve take nothing, that
Love can’t replace in the blink of an eye
After the thunder’s spoken, and
After the lightning bolt’s been hurled
After the dream is broken, there’ll
Still be love in the world”

Just wanted to share this quote because when I read it, it made me understand this concept quite a lot better:

“I do my thing, and you do your thing. I am not in this world to live up to your expectations, and you are not in this world to live up to mine. You are you, and I am I, and if by chance we find each other, it’s beautiful.”

—Frederick E. Perl

I think I’m getting closer to completing this goal. I’m convincing myself more and more that the opportunity of us living happily ever after was never “real”. I’m actually starting to think of a couple of positives that came out of this short relationship where previously I could only she the pain. I’m not back in the daylight yet but I can see the light at the end of the tunnel.

I stumbled over this goal and it really fits right now.

I thought my ex was a different person than the one she was, it was probably that she said one thing and then did another and I think in her mind was a third thing! Anyway, the point is that she’s not the person I thought she was and she may never be, and even if she does become that person I can’t wait around for it to happen as its just too destructive for me.

I know I’ve completed this goal when I can think of her and us and not be annoyed by such a great opportunity wasted as the opportunity was never really there in the first place.

The day that I can do that is definitely not today though, and tomorrow doesn’t look promising either!

Actually I realized that SOME people are not who you thought they were in the FIRST place! And removing them from my life has been the best thing for me!!!

I am never going to be okay with this. I will be happy if I am able to realize this on time. So I guess I’m giving up on this one, because I am not ready yet to be ok with people I was wrong about. I first need to find a way to realize – is this more like be ok with myself, or be ok with the people. If with myself – then maybe I should check as done. But if with people… then what do i do? If I was thinking not very high about a person and I realize I was wrong, then of course I will be okay – both with myself and the person. on the other hand – if i get disappointed – i would be ok with myself, and I won’t be okay with the person. And again 2 options – either I turn my back on them, or if I do love them very much to the point I have to accept them as they are – I will have to force myself to be okay.
Then – why should I give up? this would be wrong
I am okay with everything right now, most of all with myself. People in the past who I realized are not worthed my love and trust and everything are in the past. People I have now in my life, and I was wrong about the way they are – well, they are still in my life in one way or another, and I am okay with the way they are, and the way I accept them.
So
bottom line
_ – I check as done.
YAY – how come I kept this goal for so long, when it is so easy to see how things are. Not at all complicated.