be in a relationship

the new first couple.

this article gave me inspiration: http://www.huffingtonpost.com/kathlyn-and-gay-hendricks/obama-marriage-body-langu_b_144937.html

barack and michelle obama seem to really respect and support each other in their goals. they make eye contact, touch each other, and help each other. check out the slide show in that article.

many of the single men i’ve been encountering seem to lack much ambition and seem intimidated by my own career goals. that probably means i should travel in better circles. i couldn’t agree more. but the intensity of my coursework has made the expansion of my social circle happen at a snail-like pace. after exams, i will have to see about changing that.

steve and erin pavlina have been on my relationship hero list lately also. i really like steve pavlina’s blog and he and his wife erin both seem like amazing goal-oriented people who are passionate about growth and really believe in supporting each other.

this is what i want.

well i have not had a true girlfriend since 8th grade, there were a couple of girls that liked me in high school but i really didnt want one cuz of all the bs i saw my friends go through and didnt want that, now a freshman in college with a job i feel like i can handle a relationship. i hope i can find the right girl

*I Wish everyone luck*

i’m getting tired of meeting boys and crushing on them and even kissing them only to see how incompatible we really are. i feel like i’ve gone through a string of them recently. as much as i really want this, i think i need to lay low for a while. my heart has grown weary of the disappointment. i don’t really need any distractions with exams approaching anyway.

that said, i can’t stay out of the game for too long. no need to lose hope. i plan to get back out there once exams are finished. sigh.

No commitment is getting kind of boring.

the guy i like. he has an interesting way about him. i’m definitely looking forward to spending more time with him.

i have to be careful, though. i’m so bad at dating and i definitely like him enough to want to be his friend for a while.

I used to tell people that I don’t care, but recently I’ve understood that I do. I wasn’t really into serious relationships (the rest lasted not more than 6 months) until my last boyfriend. I broke up with him because of various reasons. Anyway the relationship was extremely difficult and I didn’t want to get myself involved in anything, but I met another guy. Handsome, intelligent, funny. He just forgot to tell me that he was married as he “hadn’t thought that would make any difference”. For me it did and obviously I didn’t want to go into this relationship. After all that I was disappointed and angry, but it has been six month since I left my boyfriend and four month after the other loser. Still, there’s no interesting guy around me, I try to attend various courses to meet new people (the “guy factor” is involved). Anyway the groups are mostly female, the guys are not interesting and I would like to go on a date and start a relationship long or not( I think I’ve forgotten to mention that my ex got married a week ago), because for the time being I just consider all men to be terrible pigs

i have interest. he may have interest. maybe. we will hang out again this weekend. more assessing must be done.

that i do not want to be in a relationship with the wrong person.

a new acquaintance asked me out. although he seems like a good person in many respects, i am sure that we would not be compatible romantically. after giving so many concessions in prior unsuccessful relationships, i know that i would rather be alone than with someone who limits my self-expression.

still looking… there must be someone.

i have taken a lover. probably the most intensely sexual partnership i have had in a long time. our attraction was immediate upon first sight and it only intensified when we began talking. we made out with each other twenty minutes into our first conversation.

but even though i like just about everything about him, i have my doubts that we would be compatible if we tried to develop it into a real relationship. right now it’s easy. we have great sex, chitchat about real or silly things, watch a movie, have more sex, spoon all night. no pressure. no expectations. this is a rare find. i definitely don’t want to spoil it.

at least my lust is sated and i feel confident and beautiful. i would like a more well rounded and emotionally intimate relationship, but this more than does for now.

Sometimes I feel so lost being single. Most of my friends are in a serious relationship now, more and more of them are moving in together, some even start to talk dreamily about getting married and having children. I’m 23 now and have never been in a relationship – I guess I have just to much issues. When I like a guy, I feel immediately too intimidated to do something with those feelings, to talk to him, even. I know it’s ridiculous, I’ve never been really good in social talk, but nowadays I can handle people relatively well. It’s just in this area that I totally lack intuition and courage. And most of the time I don’t even mind so much. Especially lately, after a difficult time with some set-backs, I’m rather happy with my life, I see things I could work on, but also notice many many good things. It’s just when I see couples sharing those little things, that I really feel the need to be in a relationship. Just for the day-to-day things; having breakfast together while sharing the newspaper, telling each other about the passed day, someone on your side with family gatherings, just being there for you – you get the point :) That’s what I wish for, but I just don’t see it happen. I’m static, I can’t break threw my own wall. I’m an open person, I share my feelings easily with friends, tell even strangers what’s on my mind – I just don’t seem to be able to combine this with ‘romantic feelings’. Plus, I have the tendency to like ‘bad’ guys, so when I like someone, I tell myself from the start that he is wrong for me. In most cases this is true, but still it’s not helping :) I should take a risk once, but I just don’t know how…