find happiness

I love life,It’s so interesting and exciting at the same time.That’s why I live life to the fullest,I enjoy it in anyway I can and you should too.the rest I’ll tell you later….

My life has been a task; I can never let myself enjoy anything. As a young child, I was traumatized and now I punish myself all the time. I am in therapy.. Twice a week. I take all my meds. But I just don’t feel human. I never have. I think it’s my fault. I think I’m torturing myself because I don’t think I deserve any kind of satisfaction. I’m working on it in therapy..

Part of me wants to be as sick as possible. Maybe it is a manifestation of a cry for help, or a need to be taken care of. I want to be bruised and broken, then I want to be protected and taken care of.

I constantly have random thoughts of things I think will make me happy:
Continue learning about nature
Volunteer
but they all seem overwhelming so I just stick with the same ol rut of working and “getting by”. I have this fear that at the end of it all I’ll have a moment to look back and thing Damn, I wish I did…

Focus on the good in life, the good in yourself and in others.
Be grateful.

I think happiness is when your satisfied with what you have done in your life, and your proud of your accomplishments.
Happiness is when you can say “their’s nothing i would change in my life right now”
Of course, things aren’t ever going to be perfect, but happiness is when you can accept imperfections.

I want to find that.

Things have not been good where I am for a while right now and it has hit rock bottom now. I really don’t know what I am going to do. The best things are not going through my head and I really want an escape from my misery. I am tired of people telling me it will get better when I see no end in sight. I go to bed at night wishing that I did not have to get up and face it again. and then the vivid dreams that I have of a forever immortality are simply amazing. I truly wonder if happiness can be found for me.

i just got out of high school and i think this is the time that i need to find what really makes me happy.

I’ve never been happy. I’m engaged to a wonderful man, but sometimes the relationship and what goes on scares me.
My family(namely my mother) doesn’t love me.
I’ve given up on so many things.
I don’t know. I hope to find happiness somewhere.

I was happy once. I want to be happy again.

i live in ny, brooklyn. ive started a company, it will be successful, but there are outside and inside forces that are at odds with me being happy. i need to attain happiness or my life will end at a young age.