Get my asthma under control

1. will make me literally a more happy person—absolutely, literally. (Asthma can contribute to sadness/helplessness/hopeless feelings)
2. live a longer life
3. live a healthier life
4. able to do more, be more energetic to do more
5. able to dance (stamina)
6. more oxygen to brain =s maybe better thinking, writing, and creating

• lose weight
• take medicine regularly and not sporadically
  (This includes the following:)
1. long term inhaler
2. Singulare
3. short term inhaler
4. stuff to reduce inflammation in esophagus
5. nasal spray

• exercise
• Neti pot

the above are the bald facts of what is needed

did some advanced fancy breathing tests at the pulmonary specialist…

and she seems to think that my weight is causing most of my problems.

(not that i don’t have asthma, but she doesn’t think it’s as severe as others have told me)

I know I should be happy to hear this, and on some level I am, but on another level I’m feel a bit… incredulous and perhaps also a bit angry.

hmm… could it be something to do with the amount of weight she said I’d need to lose to make a difference? (50 pounds)

i think so…

and also, though, besides that, the thing that is throwing me off is not knowing for sure what to think of her methods… which are v. diff from others I’ve seen in the past….

and got some medicines to help calm down the asthma

I’m so sick of worrying about having my inhalers on me at all times…I’m so sick of that lingering fear of another attack in the back of my head…I saw the commericial that says “If you use your rescue inhaler more than 2 times a week, your asthma is not under control.” and I just thought, 2 times a day would be nice much less 2 times a week. UGH just give me fully functioning lungs!!

I feel much better with my asthma now – I remember to take my inhaler most of the time these days, though I do still forget time to time.
I still obviously need to keep on an eye on this one – just because it’s ok at the moment that doesn’t meant it’s the be all or end all. Indeed, there’s still good chance this one could come back again if I don’t keep an eye on things.

in process, but it’s better than before… thanks for the support, y’all!

than 2 weeks ago, but got to stay vigilant. i can feel it even if i forget taking the inhaler one time.

and on that note… i should go do that.

but it’s still tough… it’s not coming back (meaning my breathing) the way it used to come back right after i started to treat it…

hmm… it probably doesn’t help that I spent a lot of time yesterday in my “godforsaken apartment” clearing things out. Somehow there was something in that place that caused huge allergies and breathing problems for me… something that I couldn’t have realized before spending the night there… (which is why, out of the whole month of November, i only stayed there three nights.)

the plus side is that I did finish clearing everything out.

sign that it’s not under control…
also feeling very tired and weak all the time.

i am so angry at myself.