be proud of who I am

where I intended to be in this point in my life. I’m 27 and feel like I haven’t accomplished anything.

I’m nearly there. I’m so close to having my very last day at school (which is where people put me down, etc.). I’m going to change my name really soon, I think I’ve picked a name that really suits me. And yeah. I finally feel like I’m happy being me. :)

I’ve been going through a bit of a rough patch in my life lately and i think i need to realise that i am lucky, and that i should be proud of the goals i’ve achieved already.
I’m setting myself new goals on 43 things so i can continue to be proud of the things i’ve achieved.

I am sick and tired of feeling inferior to everyone else. i am sick and tired of having to prove myself to others. i like me. i like who i am. i try to be better everyday. i work hard and although i might have lazy days i shouldn’t feel bad about them. i am not a robot who can work 24/7 and i am not you or the other person. i can’t be them! i am me, i will never be here again. i will only live on this earth once and there is nobody else like me. i am an individual, solely original, i should be proud of this.

I want to believe in who I am. Bewlieve that I am a good person.

“be proud of who I am”...
I think I am close. The extra motivation never hurts.
I have accomplished so much in this life already- good and not so good… all of which I am proud of because it makes me who I am know. So I guess in actuality- I am.
Some days I am more aware of it than others.
Today is a great day.

I’ve always felt that I have never lived up to the expectations and goals that my fmily believed i was capable of. I just wanted them to be proud of the things that I have accomplished. As a I get older I realize that I need to be proud of me and not worry what the rest of the world thinks. However I can’t seem to shake that little girl who couldn’t bear to let down the ones she loves.

Last night i read over one of my livejournal entries and i notice i risked a LOT of things just so my friend could get all the respect she needs and i’m proud of that ^^ Proud of who i am… what i’ve become…

Ever since i was small i have always been attracted to the same sex and it never struck me as “weird” but i saw that girls liked boys, kissed boys and chased boys and i thought i had to too. By 12 i didn’t care anymore and i tried to be what i believed i was… being 18 coming up on 19, when asked “are you a lesbian?” i still reply “no”... i wish i could accept myself, and be proud to be who i am, i have to in order for others to accept me i guess