NEVER apologize for who I am!

i think goes in tandem with ‘stop worrying if people are mad at me.’ it’s time for me to stop being so overly worried if something i’m doing is bothering someone else. as long as i’m being respectful and considerate of everyone around me, anything else i do is my own business.

I am me! No matter what people say or do I am always going to be Shanta`. That is the best thing I can be. I’m sorry if this planet that I’m living is prejudice. And my personal ambitions sometime don’t ring a bell. I’m sorry if I’m the person who cares for others more than I do myself. I’m sorry if you don’t like me because I’m reasonable and I don’t take life serious. We are here at the life of a million debts. I’m sorry if I like to live life to the fullest. Remember tomorrow is not promised to you.

I have a lot of interests and to some people my interests conflict with who they think that I am. People love to put me in a box as one type of person, when I really don’t feel that way all the time. I really just want to live my life and be myself without explaining to people who I am or the way I feel. I want to be me with no regrets and no apologies.

a bisexual is how I want to live!
I DON’T WANT TO APOLOGIZE FOR IT!

I have been doing this the majority of my life – and I am SO done with it! I’m me, and I love me, and you should too! (granted I have made mistakes, and I will apologize for them, but not for just bein’ me..)

I have been reading a lot lately and it has made me want to be my true self from now on.

I read one story in particular that made me think a lot. It was about a policeman who pulled someone over and then walked up to the car with a macho attitude and ready to give the guy a hard time. When the guy rolled down the window he had a gun and shot at the policeman and drove off. The policeman lost his macho attitude and lay crying on the ground because he thought he had been shot. When the paramedics arrived they could not find any bullet wounds. It turns out the shots had all missed him but he thought he had been shot and what he thought was blood was actually just from wetting his pants.

The meaning of the story to me is that you can pretend to be all macho as much as you like but eventually a time will come where you will be exposed for who you really are.

I have been trying to be very confident lately and I have been making myself out to be ultra confident. I now realize that it is silly to pretend like that because I will be exposed as a fraud sooner or later. Someone also told me that I am more confident now than when I met her. When I met her was the time when I was putting on the biggest show of confidence that I could. That also made me realize that it is impossible to know what personality you are projecting to other people and in my case it was the exact opposite of what I thought I was doing.

I have stopped pretending to be confident now and I have given up all my other faked behaviour, as far as I know of course. I feel as if I am the same person I was when I was a little boy in primary school.

Not everyone likes the new me. My boss wants me to go back to being the loser I was a few years ago. Peoples’ attitudes have changed towards me. I like what I have become and I don’t plan on giving it up just because people don’t like it.

I’m not going to change who I am or what I do because someone is offened by me. I’m not the one at fault, they just need to think outside of the box.

basically got my self respect back, and never been happier/more proud.

but in saying that, I still know when to apologise if I have done something wrong or hurt someone’s feelings. But there’s an important difference between doing something wrong and apologising for who I am.

I no longer apologise for who I am because I love me! And I’m not sorry!

I think I have mentioned somewhere else (maybe the list of 100 things about me) that I have a really bad habit of saying sorry for any little thing and everything! But I think I can mark this as done now because I’ve stopped. I have accepted that I am who I am, and it doesn’t matter whether you like it or not cos I’m me and you’re not!

I’ll mark this as done but I will still always remember NEVER to apologise for who I am! Cos I’m me and there’s only one person in the entire world like me so I’m unique, and I don’t ever have to apologise for that.