start painting again

i must get myself started

Somewhere I got really off course, but I guess that happens with all goals. I at least will be working really hard to enter 1 small entry in a museum show before the end of the year. I however can say I did get back up on the horse this year. Though I got really discouraged lately I feel a little bit more confident and hopeful for 2009. I think at least putting one small work in a group show will help me get ready for 2009 with better confidence.

ok, so everytime i went out, i couldnt resist buying a new paintbrush, por new acrylic paints…new oil pastels, and a canvas..skecth books, graphite pencils…despite me owning lots of art material anyway. i figured, if i bought enough, i might actually end up USING it…
you see, i used to LOVE to paint. like, seriously, i loved art, painting, using ink and water, oil pastels…and iwas rerally GOOD. after i left college, i went to university to study Graphc Design…but it all fell apart, and i ended up dropping out, which i regret every day. and i just kind of…gave up.
so about years later, here i am…i bought all these things, and a friend of mine sarted encouraging me to paint, because he had faith in me, but i kept thinking, seeing as i hadnt painted or touched anything remotely linked to art material, that i would suck…badly.
but, he told me, even if you’re crap, who cares! just try again…and its art! even crap art is good art nowadays, lol.
so, i painted a picture…actually a copy of Georgia O’Keefe’s, Oriental Poppies, (i will try to post it on the site), onto the cover of a blank scrap book. and it came out, beautifully…i nearly cried at how awesome it was, and that I painted it…ME, the person i felt had lost all her artistic ability…so, i gave the book to my friend :) i gave it to him as a “thank you”...and the day after that i painted an other painting…and the date after that another one…and then another one…and now, here i am, able to say, “i’ve done this!” on my list, and be super proud! and after this, i actually feel i’ll be able to accomplish ANYTHING i put my mind to.
so anyway, just wanted to share with everyone…sharing withthe world, is kinda therapeutic in a way, and so anyway, thats all i had to say.

x

Get 6 paintings done by the end of this year. Deadline of December 31st. If I get more done than that would be great, but 6 would be a good start.

creating is joyful

Well. I bought two paint-by-number sets because I thought they’d be fun. It’s definitely not my kind of painting! I got bored really quickly, especially with the fact that nearly every section required me to mix colors together. I’d much rather be painting my own canvas with my own colors…but at least it was a step in getting back to that mindset!

I recently picked up the brush again after longing for it for YEARS. It was funny how it happened. I almost didn’t do it, just for the sake of money, but my boyfriend encouraged me to indulge myself, at least this once. The funny thing was, I was looking into getting something to keep myself occupied at his house while he built models one week. When we went to Ocean State Job Lots and we wandered the aisles, I saw the paints and canvases and bit my lip considering it. He encouraged it, and I couldn’t wait. When we got back to his apartment, I began to paint. He was so enthused over it, and so enamored with my skill (which he’d not seen)that it really encouraged me to want to paint more. I sadly left my materials at his apartment, as it was the only place I was really able to sit down and paint. I can’t wait to pick up the brush again, though I have no idea what I am going to paint when I get the chance again.

ya

:)

I need to start painting again. I loved art in highschool, and even had a portfolio, and admissions packet for Savannah School of Art. Somewhere down the road, I just lost interest. I need to pick it back up!!