find myself

Puppies are my weakness, I will forever love my baby Rocky and Marley for giving me happiness all of my life.

It’s funny that experiences take the path that they take. It’s only recently that accountability becomes necessary for freedom. Our choices are our choices. Even if their not done or chosen alone.

I forgot myself in a long trip to today. Find myself isn’t literal. It’s actual.

I was speaking with a friend about the idea of backpacking through Europe. I read something here by a member in Alaska about the need to be free. Again actually. Not angry just disappointed. Combined, these two experiences made my choice clear.

A vision quest if you will. I want Europe. I figured in time.

Nothing is holding me back. I have no ties at the moment and I’m pretty distant at times unless connected to something. Not so much the haze. The lack of interest in looking everywhere.

I’ve never given myself that much freedom. I’ve been too busy going through the motion.

I want me. And immersed in the Void isn’t where I am. Or I wouldn’t be looking.

I’ve never set myself on a path of my own.
Action without consequence. But with reason of my own brain.

I liked what that member had said. Everyone flakes. Even us to us. Everyone wants something. I understand the distaste to consumerism.

I get what I need. So full circle. I need to take the quest.

Wish me luck. Itinerary first. I’m stoked.

My high school job forever impacted my life.

Working in a nursing home allowed me to uncover an aspect of my life I never knew existed so prominently within me. I love making people happy, exceeding their expectations, and helping them when they need it. I hold so much patience. I hold so much care. The old folk will forever be apart of me <3
Mary Bean. Miriam Rouhow. Stella Veneski. Celia Rich. John Hood. Harriet Nassif. Selma Santer. Clarice. Carolyn Bowker.

I strongly enjoy watching scenes based in supermarkets and
schools

but of course I’m only 17. And I have big plans and ideas though. Someday. Someday.

I may be on the way of finding myself..But I’m still lost, confused and
unsatisfied..
Not sure exactly how to do that but feeling I really have to so that I could be happy again and start to love my life & live it right…
No one could help find myself… No one could do it except me..
I can wait years & years without finding myself and I could find it tomorrow or sth.. The question is how to do it ??
I guess doing something you really want or acheiving a goal you’ve always wanted will help finding yourself..
I’ll think about it and I’ll try !!
And I hope I could do it soon :)

Just attended a session of EFT and oh my god OMG!
I have just uncovered what has been stopping me from finding myself.
I’ve been trying to be the son my father never had all these years.

Looking into voice dialogue to find out who I am… change goal to finding my selves rather than my self 8O)

i’m so tired and desperate right now , i’m 20 years old and all my life i’ve been doing everything just to impress other people, impressing others gives me this momentarily false feeling of happiness and i ve been doing this for so long that i dun even think about it anymore, it just happenes automatically
for example, i wanna lose weight not becuz i wanna be healthy and look good for myself, but becuz i dun want anyone to say iam fat , and becuz i wanna look better than everybody
i wish i could be free from this pattern of thinking
that’s why i thought if i really find who i truly am , maybe this would go away and i would start to actually do things that make me happy

I feel like I have become a better person over the last year or so. Less of a hot head, less angry and generally less of a bitch. I still have no idea who I am though. I hope i find me soon.