be a better buddhist

I’m trying to meditate more.

My ability to exist as a passive observer of the world has diminished a lot. Anxiety sucks.

But I’ve been adhering to basic precepts of no killing/stealing/sexual misconduct/lying/intoxicants. I used to drink alcohol but I’ve stopped.

The present moment is still so elusive.

ive been a buddhist for little while now but sometimes when im meditating i get distracted

If feel that I am a better buddhist every day. It’s weird though because I’ve sat here trying to figure out why, and it’s just something I can’t quantify.

still sucks

I need to chant more and stay focused! I need to meditate when things are rough. How do I stay focused?

life has been bad. i have gone down a road that has given me so much grief. you certainly do reap what you sow. recently, a very dramatic event has been the catalyst for making my life better. i used to be caring, affectionate, and understanding. i abandoned my buddhist ways for a life of self-destruction. i’m back on the path again and living a new life.

I have been working on so much in my life the past few months but overall it stems from my spiritual journey.

All of the ‘living green’ and ‘giving back’ is all about how i want to live my life on a daily basis and grow as a person.

This is a goal that will never be ‘achieved’ as I’m sure no one will ever call me a lama (they might call me a llama though)... but as long as i can check in with myself from time to time and realize that I’m making progress, I’m doing okay. I’m loving this site more and more because it’s helps me do that.

We switch up who leads the guided meditation, and I’m leading before I leave the country, very symbolic and nice, I guess. But I wrote the meditation, I went the easy route and wrote one about change… fancy that! But I think it’ll go well. How else does one be a better buddhist? I’m still looking for answers…

i bought these things when I was in India at a Buddhist location. But i dont know how to formally use them during meditation, so i would sort of play with them when it occured to me. but if i hang them around my neck, i am always a little aware of them. not in a bothering way, but the presence becomes part of my consciousness (especially if its hot). So now they will remind me to try to act day to day as a better buddhist, in each moment, to remember compassion and breathing and all the other astounding ideas that tradition offers. and i take them off at night, so that i wont become accostumed to their feel (and they wont break).

Daily.