fear nothing

I’m only afraid of earthquakes, this shouldn’t be a really hard thing to accomplish. This phobia makes me very nervous on bridges and in tunnels, but the severity of the fear waxes and wanes. I still go over and under these structures but if I get stopped on/in one, I start crying.

I know my fear is rational – I live in an area where we’ve had it hammered into our brains that the BIG ONE is on its way…and it is. And unlike almost every other natural disaster, there is absolutely no warning. No time to evacuate, or get to a safe spot. You’re screwed. The idea is not pleasing.

However, I do realize that the chances of me being in a really bad place when it does happen (and I am fairly certain that it will happen in my lifetime) are very slim, and I tell myself this.

I used to have this shuddering shiver run through my body whenever I went through the tunnel that I reguarly drive through. It has subsided, and I do not always think about earthquakes when I drive it anymore.

But I have moved, and have to drive over one of two bridges to get to the mountains where I live. One is very wobbly and one (as I have just found out from the news) is cracked. Neither make me feel very safe.

But…I’m dealing with it.

Throw me out of a plane, put a spider in my hands, wrap a snake around my neck as I ride on a gigantic rollercoaster watching horror movies. I might squeal but I won’t be afraid.

what a worthy goal!

freedom from fear is the goal.

I want to be able to say that i fear nothing except God.

No REALLY I AM

There is a song called “Fearless” by VNV Nation, it inspired me to try and be Fearless… It’s easier then you thing. You just have to identify when you are afraid, then don’t let it control you!

I was afraid of bugs – I am moving to the jungle, and I have lived with a tribe in the jungle… lots of bugs, no problems.

I was afraid of dentists – Now my dentist is my favorite person on the planet…

I was afraid of hieghts – but I have been ziplining, and to the top of the Eiffle Tower

I am not afraid

Unlike my friends, I am not afraid of the average things like heights, scarey movies, snakes, bugs, roaches, wasp, being rejected, large stray dogs, or sharks. However the two things I am most afraid of are the movie ET and frogs (including toads). ever since I was little I have been afraid of ET and now at the age of 16 I can sit and watch movies like The Exorcist and not be freaked out. Also I wasn’t always afraid of frogs but recently at school some seniors left a dead frog in the hallway and I could not go near it. I was so embaressed! My friends now sneak up behind me and say ribbit! Hopefully I can get over this nonsense!