Step out of my comfort zone

The last month was very boring for me, because now I don’t have anything to do, no school, no job, nothing! I would love to go back to Doha and start working again, but my husband is in Cyprus, so I don’t want to go back until he is not there. I have 2-3 more weeks here, and I should do something immediately, to spend that usufully somehow. I have to find ideas how to cheer up my lights, not just read books and watch tv, because that’s totally boring. After 2 weeks I will come again and write about my progress.

when i’m around people my body language and my silence screams out!!! .. I get easily stressed in these kinda situations! i feel like i was trapped inside a wooden box and can’t get out, not living my life to the fullest.. not nearly living a real life, i’ve had this since 2 years ago, i’m not myself around new people, i hate change in all it’s kinds, opportunities fly all over me, never was able to catch one!!! not able to reach out speak out, laugh loud!
from now on, i’ll give everything a shot, even things that i don’t like. free myself and get out of my wooden box !

I’m in a public speaking class that has me talking about myself. Now that is definitely pushing my comfort zone! =D

Check eet offf!

So I totally went to Japantown alone last week and decided to eat at a Japanese restaurant.

I wanted sushi, but I was surprised to find few places that offered it. If they did offer it, there was a selection of, like, five rolls.. that all contained seafood, which I do not like.

And yes, I realize about 90% of sushi is seafood, but this little girl is happy with veggie sushi and even fried chicken sushi.

Anyways, I ordered something really odd that I had never tried before (totally sucked).

Did I mention I am horrible with chopsticks? I was having a really hard time picking up my noodles, which I didn’t even want to eat because they tasted so bad.

Even though it was a pretty bad experience, I’m still glad I went out there and did it.

At least now I know that I do not like cold soba noodles with grated potatoes (read: thick, white foam. Seriously, wtf).

right now am just too comfortable am used to everything and my days are predictable.

Okay.. It’s been 2 years since I dated.. I stay home most of the time and watch TV if I don’t have work to do. Nothing is interesting in my life. I believe we all should live life to the fullest and do things we always wanted to do!! It’s one lifeeeee we’re livinggg! So that’s an item in my list :)

So I’m going to try to do this by checking off my other goals- because in order to do most of them I’m going to have to make myself break free.

My worst fear isn’t doing these things, it’s doing them alone.

I have this crippling fear of when you walk into a room full of other people and you feel expected to talk to them, even though you don’t want to. But the thing of it is that I WANT to want to talk to them, just usually I never wind up talking to the right people and I get the stupid ones.

So I’m hoping my goals will put me in a better place that will surround me with like-minded people I can relate to and get to know. i’ve never had a problem making friends, I just can’t do it unless I’m forced into a situation with them. I wish I wasn’t so stubborn and scared.

a few days ago to tend to choose the easier way just because I’m afraid a little bit of new things (while I would love to experience different things).
Just one example, I’m always going back to Qatar (okay, good point, my husband is there), but I really (really-really-really) hate that country and it brings out the worse of me. I have many plan to do and I should start working on them (fortunately my husband is open-minded, so he supports my plans usually). I am now planning to go back once more just to collect some money, study and prepare for things I want to do and then I will do it.
One more thing is sport. I want to run oftenly, or do any kind of sport, but many times I’m lazy, and I really need to stop this.
So it’s time to step out of my comfort zone and get myself into the undiscovered!

I think one of my biggest problems is that i don’t take opportunies, they regret it later. Because what i tend to do is, even if i want to do something, i can’t actually imagine me doing it therefore i just step back and the let the chance fly by me. I know this kind of attitude means i’m not living life to the fullest. I feel like my teenage years were shit and i’m determined to not let the same happen to me in my 20’s. But i’m already full of doubts and cant imagine me doing so.

I need to stop all this trying to picture myself in teh future and just fucking get out there and do something

i tried it again..then i got stressed by change but now i am much better so i will get out of my little box again..this goal actually tests limits